Friday is April 1st and then we’ll officially be in our due date month. I’m both feeling more and more excited with each passing day and feeling more and more verklempt with each passing day. Just yesterday morning, I was teary-eyed to my mom about how I already miss our family of three and can’t believe my dedicated time with Rowan is coming to an end. Rowan and I have the most special relationship and it will change forever in a matter of days or weeks. I know he will thrive as a big brother but my goodness my heart. My heart is overwhelmed by losing my solo bond with Rowan, by the joy we will all feel with him becoming a big brother, and by how blessed we are to get to welcome another beautiful little soul into our family.
There are so many emotions and I can barely scratch the surface of putting them into words. It is such an exceptional moment in time for our family. I feel the push-pull of wanting to pause time so I have more of it with just Rowan and simultaneously wanting to hurry it up so I can meet the baby.
Cherishing Our Family of Three
I saw a quote on Instagram that my girlfriend Samantha shared that reads, “No one even mentioned it – in 9 whole months, not one person said ‘you’re about to meet someone entirely new. And it’s not your baby, it’s going to be you.'” I myself had never really considered this. I’m beyond excited to meet and get to know our new baby but I’m also so curious as to who I will become and see when I look in the mirror in a few weeks, months, and years after having this baby. This baby will change me and I know it will be into someone I want to be.
Rowan has made me a better, more patient, more thoughtful, more inquisitive, more engaged person – I have so much to thank him for. I’m excited to see how this baby will change me and change our family. In the meantime, I have a little more time left of cherishing our family of three. I’m savoring each hug from Rowan and mentally bottling them up to hold onto forever and ever.
I adore these family photos we took last month with the exceptionally talented Good Grace Photo. She captured this special time for our family so beautifully! These photos also bring me right back to the maternity photos we took when I was pregnant with Rowan. Time is passing before my very eyes!
My Dress (on sale!)